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20 May 2017 17:47![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
unsatisfactory_personI pretty much broke up with Night Vale at this point, and getting back together seems rather unlikely. I just look at what day it is, realise that there's probably been a new episode or two, go read the transcript(s), feeling a little bit deader inside at the end, grimly download the episode(s) and then never listen. At some point I'll probably stop reading and downloading altogether.
Current Night Vale is the opposite of fiction I need those days. It's probably exactly the kind of fiction someone else needs those days, and good for them, then. I need stories that don't make me want to die and don't make me feel like I'm already dead, yet for some reasons still have feelings and emotions, but only negative ones. We've been through it already.
I left the town of my nightmares, and I mosty left Night Vale now, and next week I might decide I don't want to go back to Central City. I only feel welcome in my own fictional worlds - other people's fictional worlds don't want me to be alive, don't want me to be happy, don't want me.
Not much better than the real word, then.
Current Night Vale is the opposite of fiction I need those days. It's probably exactly the kind of fiction someone else needs those days, and good for them, then. I need stories that don't make me want to die and don't make me feel like I'm already dead, yet for some reasons still have feelings and emotions, but only negative ones. We've been through it already.
I left the town of my nightmares, and I mosty left Night Vale now, and next week I might decide I don't want to go back to Central City. I only feel welcome in my own fictional worlds - other people's fictional worlds don't want me to be alive, don't want me to be happy, don't want me.
Not much better than the real word, then.
