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Why am I such a mess, why do I keep shipping my favourite characters not with people who love them, care about them, can make them happy and, canon-wise, do make them happy - but with people who just... either don't love them, or just not good for them for whatever reasons, not necessarily bad people, though sometimes they are, but other times they might be amazing and wonderful but it's just not possible, will never work out - and it's not that I'm attracted to Tragic Unrequitedness or Problematic Mutual Abusiveness, because most of the time I actually want it to be requited and not tragic, and not completely Problematic if at all possible... And the canon gives me some nice supportive relationship, and I say: "no, look, I like this person, no, I do, and I absolutely believe that this person is good for my favourite character whom I love and want to see happy - but I want my favourite character with that person. I know it's horrible. I'm horrible. I'm sorry."

I'm sorry.

(And at least one of my Wrong Ships is canon, and they don't have to fuck for it to be canon, they might never ever kiss and it will still be canon - but it's still not Good and Healthy and Cute ship.)

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(For the record, I do have "healthy and cute" ships. Obviously, they don't cause me any inner turnmoil, and I'm not getting angry at myself for shipping those. Also I'm not sure why do I feel the need to clarify it at all, because I have no idea to whom I'm even clarifying that.)